Not so hacked off tonight. The irritation has gone to reveal a heavy heart.  I actual have the time tonight to take some time out and talk but my mobile has run out of battery and I have left my charger at home.

Damn.

So I'm here. More awake than I have all week, longing for the company of others. And one in particular. The thwarting of any resolution that could have been possible in the mid-end of last month still frustrates. Making the decision to do it was good, but once I decide to do something I like to follow it through. I want to do it but circumstances mean it is not possible at present. Circumstances that bizarrely reinforce that we have the makings of something.

My lodger gave me some advice about the situation which I followed for a bit. I came to realise it was advice that would be fine at the start of something but we are far from that.

And yet things are and have been overcomplicated. The base is that I like him and he likes me. The rest is just possibilities, fear and supposition.

So surely it is simple?

Or who am I kidding?